today was standard. work. work. n stuff.

got a call from nick. im tryin to get another one of his resources in. cuz he's a stand up guy. probably the biggest gentleman ive ever met. i admire that. envy it really. so. he called about the product. ended up talking about the break up massacre instead. i think its the first time ive really talked about it out loud with someone since it happened. in depth at least. which is interesting really. i didnt mind telling him everything because he's not a sales guy to me. he's more of a friend that ive had some great times with. he was engaged to his wife for 8 years. thats crazy patience on her part. i pretty much told him i want to get married. kids. house. soon. but everytime i felt close i just push the person away. what do we make of that.

this afternoon i went into the lab. with the sole purpose of making something that tastes good. i did a chili lime sauce with a bit of red jalapeno seasoning in it. it was good. well see what happens with it tomorrow. doing that is like some kind of therapy for me. not that i need it. but i feel, like a rapper in the studio. funny as that sounds.