reflections.

this is my 2010 review. best blog of the year. aaaand my last blog on here. now that im switching. i guess if anyone is reading this still and wants the address of the new blog let me know.

so i suppose ill break this up into a few parts. work. relationships. play. i hope i can remember everything. i highly doubt it though.

lets start with work. started off the year movin up to salary. had 3 products ready to launch and they all just kind of... didnt. but. i think since the beginning of the year ive gotten to do alot more. i got a corporate card. a laptop. an i phone. and my hands into more things. aaaaaaaaaaaaand all the traveling. so let me see if i can remember all that.

um. kansas for a week. the tortilla class. that was a neat lil college town. it was freezing and there was snow on the ground all week. kansas state is a very pretty school. much like a castle. i dont remember the food really being that great.

aaand there was texas twice. where we go is right on the oklahoma border an hour above dallas. that place is really different. middle of nowhere. first production plant ive been in that didnt have hispanic people running the lines. so that was odd for me. had a couple decent times at the casino up there. no big wins.

phoenix. i hate arizona. i really do. why anyone would want to live there is beyond me. but. i remember that being a decent time. got to see the kids from school there. had dinner at the top of a building a spinning restaurant. had our table right next to "the other". then went down stairs for drinks and got plastered. haha. had a dinner that was practically three hours or some crazy shit like that. and it was horrible. except for the soup. which i remember being the best ever. it was asparagus and something soup. i think.

chicago. chicago twice. first time sucked cuz i wasnt in the city and i was sick. oh and i got cussed at by the tollbooth guy for not having change. haha. the second time was much better. yet much worse. oi. cubs game. wrigley field. nice. it was sooo fuckin hot and humid. ugh. the l train was horrible. fuck that crammed mess. girl and the goat dinner. awesome. best dinner of my life. lots of fighting. free spending spree at williams and sonoma. navy pier. food poisoning. amazing pizza and yogurt. lots of wandering. white castle. drinks atop the john hancock building. memories. oh. missed our damn flight on the way back. got home 10 hours later or some shit. that sucked. fuck o hare airport. thats all i know.

la a few times for work. watched game 7 of the finals at the hotel bar. la vs boston. that was a long drunk night. over 200 bills at the bar. all u can eat sushi place left me full. foie gras sushi. the coffee bean. downtown pasadena.

cooked sonic and del taco headquarters. neat.

wisconsin. cold cold cold. but private jet on the way down. fancy ass shit. the food there was really good. then of course there was the jenkins drunk incident. beer was good. no fences in yards. odd. but pretty in a different way.

oklahoma city. loved the downtown. nba basketball game. left our bags in the taxi. had a hotel room the size of three rooms. decent food there too.

atlanta. long days there. but free stuff at nacs is fun. the food was ok. didnt get to see much of the city so i wasnt happy about that. but. had one good night at the bar with luis. HURTING the next morning. but survived. i was exhausted by the time we were done.

wow thats alot. i think that was everything.

relationships. oh boy.

well im not gonna say anything bad about anybody. thats not my style. so.

spent most of the year with sara. that was over 2 1/2 years on and off a lot. did many a things together. grew a lot in that time. a lot. but things only could get so far before i put on the parking brake. again and again. everyone from work and my family loved her. but for whatever reason i found it difficult to do things for her that i could do with other people. and that was not okay.

samananana pie. that secret lasted 48 hours. haha. lots of skype. but never a dull moment. long distance is hard. and not having a real place to hang out most of the time was quite tiring. only gf i thought was funnier than me. heh.

amber. i think that surprised everyone. at least the ones still around that can remember us from the first time. funny thing from then that is still true. she is only person that i have never had any grey feelings with. because everything was so intense.

ok. odds n ends.

mudrun. whooo that was fun. up until the fractured ribs part. too bad theyre not doing it again next year.

napa valley trip. amazing food. very pretty. too bad i was hungover the last day.

crashed my car. erm. i mean some bitch ran into me. that sucked.

my brother got married. pressure is on now. aaaaaaaand they're having a baby in a matter of months. but. me and him are so different.

jason and ericas wedding was this year too i think.

changed apartments. i love the new place.

bought an amazing coffee machine. changed my life. heh. i think that was this year.

got a hedgehog. that was a nice lil trip. and shes been a wonderful and amazingly cute pet.

new tattoo of a food chemical.

little road trips.

tried to buy a fucking house. that didnt work out. but. in the near future i shall try again.

did the mid state fair thing. that was swell. circle of death that night too maybe. no that was a different one.

my food got better.

fuck what else.

i guess thats the gist of everything. i dunno if thats a lot for a year or not but that was just the highlights. i guess you can throw lots of drinking and sitting around in there to fill out the rest of the year. i hope to continue to do a lot of the same next year and finish some things that i started. i have quite a few things on my check list left. big things.

and that concludes this blog. thank you for your time.

my body is tired. good good.

my tooth is still sore. oi. i hope it gets better before next thursday when i get my temp crown put on.

"work" was horrible today. mandatory meetings. 3.5 hours on communicating. and 3.5 hours on managing my emotions. lol. soooooooooooooo boring. and stupid. i am the most monotemperamental person ever. oi. so tomorrow is four more hours of some other bullshit. then the afternoon is bowling. which hopefully i can get out of. id rather work honestly lol. but we'll see what happens.

im takin luis w me to the jazz-kings game. should be interesting.

aaaaaaaaaand my trip to tx is booked. 11-14. hollar baller.

oi vay

330 to get my car fixed. plus rental all day. plus i go in for a filling and come out with a root canal. wtf. one of those days. my mouth hurts. my roll continues.

a christmas miracle

i decided i wanted to drive home tonight. wrong. fucking. decision.

so. its raining super hard the whole way. normally i drive 75 on highway 41. well tonight i was doing about 60. heh. anyway. my car kept jerking from little hydroplane action. so i try to follow the person in front of me and drive in their tread trail. eventually they leave and im in front. and i start swerving everywhere from hydroplaning. now im going like 50. my hands are shaking and im having a panic attack. thennnnn to make things worse. my check engine light comes on and all of a sudden my car pops out of fourth gear and into third and my automatic transmission light comes on. fuuuuck. i call my dad semi freakin out. i keep drivin and eventually the AT light goes off but the engine light stays on. i still hydroplane a few times. and make it home. shiiiiiiiiiiiiit. so tomorrow, or even monday my car is goin to the shop. my dad says i should sell it. i got 98k miles on it and still owe over nine grand. plans for tomorrow are fucked. but. gotta do what ya gotta do.

onto other things.

christmas. got some weird presents. my mom put together every school picture of me grades 1-12 in a frame. what am i supposed to do with that? thats like a gift i would give to her. they gave me weights. sweaters. a mattress topper. cook book i already have. lots of booze lol. a bean bag game that resembles corn hole. about 20 dish towels. 2 for each holiday. jesus. i got a thing that weighs my luggage from my aunt, which ill never use. ummm ninja turtle pjs. awesome. a mandolin. beer pong cups, also from my mom. knife sharpener (i get one EVERY year). my brother got me a belt with skulls and studs, lol. aaaaaaaaaaaand a gift certificate to a seafood restaurant in arroyo grande. my parents love that place. its ok. dont know when ill use that. also three starbucks giftcards and a jamba juice one. lets see. those were from a vendor, my uncle, maybe my parents for the third?. i dunno.

i was cranky all day today. my mom woke me up at 8. i think its been over 10 years since she purposely did that. maybe that was the reason. but fuck i had a scowl on my face all day. so josh and gabby came over to open presents. then judy and joe came over for dinner. lately since ive seen my brother and his prego wife i think, fuck im ready too. they make as much money as me and anyone else. renting. i got three big things to pay for. house, kids, marriage. now which order do i want to do it? we'll see.

the asian market is selling jellyfish for 18 dollars a lb. frozen. only one recipe i could find online using it. but i think i want to get some.

thats enough for now. this blog will be ending in less than a week.

hohoho

christmas eve with the fam was good. nice presents. argyle sweater. ninja turtle pjs. and foodie fight. heh.

watched christmas videos from 91 and 92. fuck everyone was young.

but all in all it was good. so now im sittin here drinking milk punch. listening to the neighbors blast their fiesta music or whatever it is. i may or may not get up tomorrow morning.

So far this morning I've yelled
"goddamnit"
"son of a bitch"
"where's the fucking tooth paste"

and I've broke my moms Christmas clock.

On a roll.

stay away

did not feel good when i woke up this morning. at all.

the end of this year has been one big crash and burn. hardcore. everything ive been trying to work towards. gone. everything.

sighs.

both of my projects got killed. tjs and costco. its quite disheartening.

dear lurker. yeah you on your android checkin out my shit at crazy hours of the morning. theres nothing for you here, anymore. k thanks.

i have two new years resolutions. first. id like some letters added to my name. ccs. certified culinary scientist. im gonna try to make that happen. and im also gonna try to get engaged. thats the plan. like it or not. i should add be a better person in there too. good luck with all that.

so im at my parents. my mom made milk punch. which is like half brandy and rum. dear god that shit is strong. the rest is milk or something. get fucked up on that and it'll be like throwing up christmas.

brought smudge w me. she was runnin on her wheel in the car. heh. the dog is very interested.

as bad as bad gets. aint that the fucking truth.

i have a new blog set up. whether i use it or not will remain to be seen. but. if you dont see any new shit on here. you know why.

i just wrote a long ass blog. and accidently deleted it. jesus christ.

And pours. And pours.

When it rains it pours.

you cant make chicken salad out of chicken shit.

sucks.

this isnt fun.

piecesofyouinme

made a turkey today. under the skin i stuffed it with - pureed bacon, craisins, and white truffle oil. only i would do such a thing. it came out ok. it was my first turkey. semi moist. not bad for a first attempt. i cut it up. all that good stuff. wasnt to into it when it came time.

check engine light came back on. then went back off.

had a horrific incident this morning. it is what it is.

food
weezy
fried eggs on toast

monumental decisions.

if im going to go the next, final, step... i need to change. drastically. somebody save me.

2010 recap coming soon. dear god. 2011 will be finality. thank god.

my body is tired and sore. but. working out just makes me feel good about myself, if nothing else.

work was super busy. im gonna need my own helper pretty soon. thats a funny thing to ask for. but. thats where things are. i should find out my raise next week.

no real plans for this weekend. cooking a turkey. grocery shopping.

prolly goin home next friday. come back here sunday.

bought tickets to the jazz kings game in february. excited already.

obsessed much?

good day. productive day. two cuttings went very well. met the new board member. real sharp guy. got another project to try and crank out in the next week or so. deadlines deadlines.

came home. cleaned. laundry. ran for 25 minutes and pushed the weights around for about an hour. i feel really good. happy today. and top chef is about to come on.

thats all.

i am not a human being

ive had an intolerable temper lately. like the last few weeks. no patience. i dunno.

nice boys finish last. this i know.

my parents might come over this weekend so they can go shopping. i guess they wanna stay the night or something. oh fuck.

tomorrow will be pretty boring i think.

i'd like to get my head back on straight. become grounded again. with less stress. no oatmeal. no icing. no cracks in my tortillas.

please and thank you.

Creeper.

getting back to normal.

took the day off. went christmas shopping.

tomorrow should be interesting at work.

i feel anxious for some reason.

kinda wanna go somewhere this weekend.

Conflict resolution

Grrrr. So there was some conflict at work today. Because I don't think that I just should do someone elses job just because "that's the way things have been." but. I like to complain and I'm stubborn and decided to out my foot down today. Drama. Drama. I drew a line in the sand. Well see who wins tomorrow.

"did not know who was fuckin with"

show me the money

been working out the past few days. makes me feel better about myself. the fucking treadmill is still broke. really? its dark when i get home so i can run in the evening. fucked is as fucked does.

more shitty news. my goddamn trip got cancelled. i was really looking forward to cincinnati. goddamn marriot on the river. found plenty of exciting places to eat. fucked.

good news. after this week my cost savings will add up to over $250,000. and thats just in a few weeks.thank you thank you. that pays my salary for a while. maybe i should get a fat raise this year. i still wont find out for a couple weeks though.

thats all. i got dishes to do now. thanks for your time.

wonder years

two good ass dinners the last couple nights.

went out to lunch today with the luis "im good" munguia family at elephant bar. he insisted on paying the bill. prolly a man thing. but. none the less. i owe him.

gonna get new tires monday. oil changed tomorrow.

theyre showing my wrap to smart n final as well. that would be neat. its slated for launch in costco in may. shhhh.

my crepe idea was rejected by marketing. i got a rejection email. haha. it was funny and kinda sad. ive never heard of that before. i think it was a lil too progressive for them. my feelings werent hurt too bad. russ said "when was the last time they had a good idea". really. my two products. MY idea. thank you.

not much else. livin the quiet life.

test did not go well. fucking packaging. ugh.

home for a lil while before my test tonight. im drained.

gonna take some time to decompress.

need new tires this weekend. thats all i got planned.

so this sucks. i feel horrible. really horrible. i know its necessary though.

im going to Cincinnati i guess. leave sunday the 13th. come back wednesday.

jesus.

whats the plan now? there isnt one.